Well, it only took three days for me to not be able to post! I hit the wall last night and the blog had to wait. Sorry, some of you were alarmed, no worries, still here. Tuesday was filled with highs and lows. It's something amazing to be buying a home. I personally never thought it would be possible. Never. As a single mother of two, I just never could figure out how I'd have the money for the down payment. And, now this opportunity in Dalton has changed that along with so many other things. The emotions surrounding this miracle are also intensified by the economic climate and so many people being put out of their homes. I can't imagine the depth of fear, anxiety, stress, hopelessness of losing my home. Of knowing that you are responsible for providing for your family and then bam, losing the very thing that symbolizes that role. I grieve for our nation and wish we could find a way to make sure everyone has a home. As I signed the papers and sent them off, I held the tension of all of that in my heart. God please watch over all those who have lost their homes and are in danger of losing their homes. Help us to find ways to be like Christ, who himself was homeless during his ministry counting on the kindness of strangers. Let us do so!
My car has gotten a clean bill of health so it's ready for the journey. Today I did massive work on the house. I'm sorting through everything so that we only take what we need, want. All unwanted things are tossed or donated. I love this part of the process, unfortunately, I've started destroying every single room without putting anything together and that has a price. So today, I spent time making some sense of the mess. That helped. The moving company just called and confirmed it's not until Saturday that they will arrive. Bummer! They also weren't planning on packing me…AHHH! I stayed calm and did assure them that they will indeed be doing the packing and I'll be prepared to see them Saturday. It may mean we can't leave until Monday which would really tighten my driving schedule but I'm trying to go with it. To embrace all of this process as what it is and to go with it…change is hard after all.
Speaking of change, my sister's car died yesterday. She needs another one that will last her at least a year. If anyone near here knows of someone with a car, she could really use the help. She's so close to finishing this PhD, and that's enough stress. It's hard to see her struggling so just when I've got one foot out the door. I love you K! Lots of love and light and I'm visualizing you zipping around with your own wheels soon. Let it be so!
Change is tough. You and the girls will survive the changes and be welcomed in Dalton with open arms. This will make you stronger and ready for the tasks ahead. If you have to move across the country in fewer days now that the moving company has changed your schedule it is all for a good reason and we will not question why. I send you good positive energy and lots of love for the transition time and decision making time you are presently stuck in. Peace to you.
ReplyDeleteThe best thing to remember is that moving IN is easier than moving OUT. It's always unbelievable how many drawers and nooks and crannies we have to accumulate "stuff" in, and this is never more apparent than when we try to move it all out in a short period of time.
ReplyDeletePulling away. Pulling in. You are getting closer to the "pulling in" stage, and we are here to welcome you when you do.